Currant state:
truth is:

 i wannt to put pictures up of my fat; but its embarrassing. im so fat, LEGIT fat. to the point there i have stretch marks; my theighs ripple. its gross, ihatemyself for letting it get this bad. i was on diet pills, throwing up, hardcore working out, using lax, and just not eating. but i gave up; i only needed to lose weight for a class trip where there would be guys and a pool. so i lost like 15 pounds. but i stopped and it got so bad; im like binging; but not purging. i need help; i  need advice! got any tips?ill do anything!