Currant state:

Jan 18

truth is:

 i wannt to put pictures up of my fat; but its embarrassing. im so fat, LEGIT fat. to the point there i have stretch marks; my theighs ripple. its gross, ihatemyself for letting it get this bad. i was on diet pills, throwing up, hardcore working out, using lax, and just not eating. but i gave up; i only needed to lose weight for a class trip where there would be guys and a pool. so i lost like 15 pounds. but i stopped and it got so bad; im like binging; but not purging. i need help; i  need advice! got any tips?ill do anything!

hate myself.

you could say ive grown to hate myself.

• i want to pretty
• i want to be smart
• but must of all; i want to be thin
• i want to look like my friends; double 0’s
• i want guys to want me
• i want people to say i look hot
• i want to fit in; and not look like the only fat chick in a group
• i DONT want to be called a grenade
• i DONT want people to call me fat
• i DONT want to wear size 13 jeans
• i DONT want people to think im ugly

eating makes you ugly; makes you fat; makes you a monster..

not eating makes you pretty,makes you thin, makes you beautiful..

IWANTTOBETHININEEDTOBETHINIWANTTOBETHININEEDTOBETHIN

“why are you so unhappy?”
“you would know if you looked like me”