January 2011
3 posts
truth is:
i wannt to put pictures up of my fat; but its embarrassing. im so fat, LEGIT fat. to the point there i have stretch marks; my theighs ripple. its gross, ihatemyself for letting it get this bad. i was on diet pills, throwing up, hardcore working out, using lax, and just not eating. but i gave up; i only needed to lose weight for a class trip where there would be guys and a pool. so i lost like 15...
hate myself.
you could say ive grown to hate myself.
i want to pretty
i want to be smart
but must of all; i want to be thin
i want to look like my friends; double 0’s
i want guys to want me
i want people to say i look hot
i want to fit in; and not look like the only fat chick in a group
i DONT want to be called a grenade
i DONT want people to call me fat
i DONT want to wear size 13 jeans
i...
“why are you so unhappy?”
“you would know if you looked like me”